My Little One,

you are eating right now. nom nom nom. i have to work today :( so you have to go to grandma’s house. you have a diaper rash, but it comes and goes as always. (and no, its not from cloth). 

last night you did so good! you slept in your crib all night and woke up around 430 to eat & went right back to sleep! i started putting on ocean sounds for you to listen to & i think that helped alot, you went right back to sleep this morning everytime you made noises! 

your dad and i had a scary conversation about how he wants to take you to jacksonville for a weekend, which i totally dont agree with. you need stability and we have already interrupted your life enough with the fact that i have been to jacksonville twice, i leave randomly to go to work, & your dad goes for weeks without seeing you and then randomly comes back. it’s gotta be confusing and i’m not going to allow him to disrupt your life anymore than it already is. 

him talking about that stuff scares me though, i dont like not knowing what he’s thinking. 

anyway, thats mama and dad stuff that i’ll take care of. 

you’ve been smiling alot lately :) i love it

holy moly little girl, you are one month old. this has been the craziest month of my life! and probably the quickest too, not sure if that is because of my lack of sleep, or because every month is going to go by this fast from now on, but i sure hope not! 

you are an angel. every moment i see your face is the happiest moment of my life. i always imagined a feeling like this, but never knew how i would achieve it, turns out you were waiting up there with God for the moment I needed you most, and you came and now i get to be your mama forever. i couldnt imagine a more important job. 

you started off this month arriving in a very different fashion, but that doesnt surprise me since you are related to me! i made it through the first few emotional weeks, only to emerge happier than ever before. breast feeding came easy, and i only wanted to give up for the first week or so, but i am so proud of myself for pushing through, and now i get to know that i am making the food to feed you, its so rewarding. you never were to bad at night, you wake up maybe one time a night now and then sleep until like 9ish. i love it. your dad spent some time here too, and he is good daddy to you. he looks at you like you are princess (because you are). 

you can hold your head up pretty good, you hate being on your tummy but its getting better, you are getting good at falling asleep on your own, you act like a little shark when you are about to eat & you make the best faces. you already look so different from when you were born and i think you must weigh about 9 pounds now! you have 2 chins and i have to clean under them because milk gets trapped under there (ew)!